jack squat luc simonic Here is what i mean: number one: I know it has had the affect on others. People who are close to me in my past who sat up nights drinking and chasing women and using women and speeding through town like it was the last night in life recklessly dreaming and spitting on anyone or anything that got in the way of our lunatic search for the beauty of pleasure dripping from the boughs of come what may. Let the boughs of booze be my bride as she sways my way and loosens my reins and the shorts of my strip tease bitch sitting next to me in the rain when i touch her and poke and prod and delve madly and unremorsefully towards the goal at hand. My goal. My moment. Mine! don't we all want some of it??? You want some of it?? you can lick me too! All my parts. (wink) Shit! Comes down to this for me: Let the DEVIL (and feel free to take that either literally or figuratively) flow through me bringing me worldly pleasures in kantian gulps. channel me towards the next dark bar and drunken slut you dark demon of Jack Kerouac. Take me towards the biggest piles of gold and let's snort our noses and fuck for hours under the boughs of infidelity and deceit and demise and reckless abandon. Hell let's steal then, and shoot and kill and......... oh God it would feel sooo good!!!! anyways, This all seems to me evil and the beats defined and nurtured this generation in many ways. I think we need to understand what is at the root of it here, and then define what the line is between good and evil, if you believe in either constructs. number two: guilty. i am guilty. number three: I respect Jack Kerouac; and the reason he is so valid is the fact that he tells it like it is. he does not cloak in the guise of anything other than what it is, not really even in the guise of fiction. and in my opinion it is unredemtive narcissistic debauchery to the most wonderful glorifying and pleasurable degree. it makes my nipples hard. (just kidding) wait (not just kidding) ... .... no really, i am just kidding. Who wants to read a stream of consciousness account of do gooding?? hmmmmm?