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Syntax Issue 10
Denver Syntax
{i was told last night that i was very fuckable}
  jason neese


by a woman
who claimed celibacy.
she was pushing me
on this other woman
who i assumed not to be
claiming celibacy.
i had just met both of them
four minutes earlier
by the valet.
she was freed by
her self imposed punishment.
this allowed her
to openly tell
the other girl
how nice my body was
right in front of me
this alone made the conversation
worth sticking around for
considering my body.
she laughed this all out
to me. making inappropriate
contact, showcasing my better parts
with wild gropes. eye contact and all
she went off
without feeling vulnerable
she had given herself
an asexual annexation
of responsibility.

as she went on
to lean in
i wanted her to lie more
i wanted to use her theory
to whip out of studio city
in a frenzy
telling people just what
i thought
they needed to hear
they ought to hear
that they otherwise wouldn’t

people did what she did
i did it
by exclaiming things like
i don’t care or scoffing out
whatevers
but here was a woman
that needed to be fucked
but also needed
to be free
by whatever means necessary
we needed
to be free
and a lot of times
we weren’t when we thought we were