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Syntax Issue 10
Denver Syntax
{boozing}
  jim chandler


In 1967 a
dr in LA told me
I had five years
or less to live
if I didn't
quit drinking

having gone
to him with
a massive swelling
under my right
rib cage & some
pains I couldn't
identify

I didn't

summer of '76 came
and I was down
w/severe hepatitis
spent 3 months
in bed
the color
of a
penny
vomiting up
every bite until
I was down
from 190
to 125

brother in law
saved my life
with a big
coffee can of
Mexican grass
I smoked all day
got hungry
ate & kept
it down

when I miraculously
recovered sawbones sd
he was amazed
had only seen
one person before
with a liver
inflammation count
high as mine survive
& that dude was
totally disabled

again told that
further drinking
would kill me

being the wise man
I was I left
the dr's office
went to the liquor store
got a sixer of tall
Colt 45 & a quart
of Jim Beam

went home
sat down at the
kitchen table
& didn't stop
until it was all gone

here 31 years later
I wonder if
those doctors
are still alive
& doubt it

& marvel
that I am still
half alive

though I
sometimes doubt

that too