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Syntax Issue 10
Denver Syntax
{unlaced and untied}
  puma perl


on the morning
of my 13th birthday
i knew
that
they had lied
i would never
be
one of those girls
laughing confidently
with straight teeth
shiny words
perky feet

i would not
transform
into grace
forever
i would
seek dark corners
my hair frizzing
in the rain
make-up running
shoelaces untied
never
would I know
how to keep
everything
laced

there was no
dress code
in shooting galleries
toothless young mothers
sat next to
stockbrokers on lunch
as they wrapped
neckties tightly
around upper arms
it didn't matter
what you wore

i still stand
outside
in the rain
dreaming of Coltrane
people descend
from distant planets
a knowing glance
reminds me
of the lies
i did not
grow out of it
i remain
unlaced and untied