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Syntax Issue 10
Denver Syntax
{untitled #2}
  mark hartenbach



notice how i vanish & your world remains
-joe henry


if it were possible that an outside force could somehow seep
into an impenetrable shell, they would swear only silence.
only silence? the nothingness of before we were conceived,
minus the crack of a zen stick, when we were perfect conduits
for the absolute yes. referred to as if we had no worth, or overly
stated-it makes no difference. it means nothing. the world bows
down, though secretly anything it can’t hear or see or sense
is thrown into the scrap heap of twisted metaphysics, as if to
give it no value, is if it can be reduced to another word for
meaningless. cutting the wheel with extreme prejudice,
slitting the throat of an alleged non-presence. gutting ghosts
with complete diplomatic immunity, facing no consequences.
besides, there’s no blood, no fingerprints, no evidence at all.
they did not see or hear a thing. we are oblivious to all but one
another. therefore it must not exist. a freefall from the height
of human arrogance & love struck teenagers. all is manufactured
to obscure the truth, to hide who we really are. humans frightened
that they’ll be found out. for what? it doesn't matter. this is years
before shock television, before people would make total fools of
themselves for their fifteen minutes. primal is equated with dirty
business instead of purity. howling at the moon. it's the exact
opposite. she interrupts my tripping out. she apologizes, though
she always tells me not to apologize. as if, it's stapled with bad
intent. this is never the case. sometimes we let our psyche float
away, beyond soul length, & it needs rescued.